Studio Log

process work, writing, inspiration, and studio documentation. 

Forsythia

Every year the forsythia blooms and I think of this photograph. It was taken back in 2011, on a trusty little Holga, the shutter clicked by a friend who hasn't spoken to me in 10 months. I lived in the old four-plex that was filled with traffic sounds, right off Natio. One night my best friend was staying with me and we went on a night walk, watching the traffic getting onto the Ross Island bridge. We found this huge forsythia bush. At the time I didn't know it was named forsythia. I just knew it was a big blazing ball of yellow, that appeared after months and months of rain and dark, like a flame. 

I stood in it, wondering about spiders, while she photographed me with the Kodachrome film in the camera. The shutter was set to bulb, the photograph is so blurry. Just a ball of yellow and a girl in the middle.

Each spring the forsythia blooms, I always notice it while I'm driving, the big balls of yellow flowers dotting the hills by the highway. Like torch flames leading me from one point to the next. And I always think of this image, the girl standing in the fire, captured by her best friend.

Undone

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Spending a lot of hours these days thinking about friendships. Most particularly a lost friendship. I'm not sure I want to make art about it, it's a little angsty, a little too raw. But I'm also not sure I have much choice in the matter, it's the only thing coming to the surface these days. 

It reminds me a little of Sophie Calle's Exquisite Pain. Except instead of a lover I've lost a friendship so big it seemed like it would go on forever, a horizon line.